Oncology appt.

Dad went to the oncologist today. He had his last chemo today as well. He will need to go back every three weeks for the med to boost his red blood cells. He will have a CT scan in about 6 weeks to check the progress. The Dr. assured us that when the cancer starts to go again, he still has "a few tricks up his sleeve". So we are in a holding pattern, the good old "wait and see".

I know Dad will be at my shop tomorrow doing some work if he feels ok.

On a personal note, I feel like a horrible mom. It is my son's second birthday today and I totally forgot about it. Fortunately for me he is not old enough to realize I forgot. I have been working late since wednesday and it has been so hectic at work getting ready for the big Metro Cruise this weekend my brain was on auto. So Happy Birthday to Charlie, at least we had ice cream for supper. If any of you are going to the Metro Cruise this weekend, look for me at one of the souvenir booths. One is at Roger's Plaza and one at Woodland Mall. Cross your finger we sell all of the swag so all our hard day and night work will be worth it.

Think good thoughts and have a good weekend.

Happy Event

As some of you may know my youngest sister Jodi got married yesterday. It was good to have a happy event. Jodi looked beautiful and I thought her dress was very elegant and fit her personality perfectly. Dad was very fetching in his tux, one of a handful of times I have seen him in a suit. It was very emotional at times as all weddings are, however due to the circumstances it may have been more so than a "normal" wedding. I held it together until the father/daughter dance. I had to step into the hall for a moment and there were several other pairs of wet eyes in my family. Even Dad and Jodi avoided looking at each other during the dance. Everyone had different reasons for their tears, mine were two: 1.happy Jodi had the opportunity to have this moment and 2. knowing I never will. I guess that is the "bittersweet" part of life.

I personally was co-mistress of ceremonies with my oldest sister Teresa. It was my job to pin flowers on everyone, wow did I bend a ton of pins, not to mention I had my left & right backwards for a few people...next time I bring my staple gun!

The ceremony went off with just a couple of hitches...when there are little chilrden involved it is bound to happen that way. The kids looked adorable, but I think the pressure of all the eyes on them and short naptimes were too much for them by the time the ceremony began. I am sad I missed most of the ceremony due to my son's crabbiness. Him and I were up all night Friday and then went to ER at 530-8 am Saturday. (the second time we have been to the ER in two weeks) So we were both dragging, I just had the option to drink more coffee and coke and got through it.

All in all, dad looks and moves 400% better than last month. He has his last round of Chemo this Friday and I will go to the Dr. appointment Friday morning as well. He has also been back to work full time for a couple of weeks. Crazy man!

Let me apologize as I always to do for the lack of posting. When we were camping dad looked so bad I was preparing myself for the worst. I really was wondering if he would make the wedding and that was har dto deal with. So I withdrew into myself and my life with my kids. I didn't even see him or call him for a couple of weeks (for which I am coping with guilt for) because I was a mess. I cope well but sometimes it all comes crashing down at once. I love rollercoasters...unfortunately the emotional kind that comes with cancer is very draining at times.

So thank you for being patient and understanding through all of this. As I have said I try to update but I too have emotions to deal with....and two kids...and a job...and a never ending mountain of laundry, toys and dishes...freakin dish fairy still hasn't shown up. So now I need to go don my black and white stripe jersey and whistle to referee the fighting children. Keep up the good thoughts and prayers.