Nothing to tell...and a bitchy rant

Dad had his CT & bones scans yesterday, but we will know nothing until after the appointment Friday. He says he is tired alot and the scans were tiring. He is in pain also.

I will update Friday night or Saturday morning. (sooner if there is anything to tell)

I have heard a few stray comments about how I am not updating the blog regularly. The truth is there is nothing new to tell right now. I am sorry if some of you are irritated about my handling of this blog - I do it as a courtesy. I do my best, but please remember that this is my father. I try not to let too many of my emotions bleed into the updates, so at times I need to process and cope with the information in my own mind before I can update. If I just go typing willy-nilly, I may hurt someones feelings or my personal comments my get confused with the facts. I try very hard to relay the facts objectively even though I may throw in a few opinions of my own. I am sorry if I am not pleasing some of you and I'm sure I sound crabby about this. Call this my bitch rant if you want. My dad is dying and I'm not ok with it! - so forgive me if this blog is not always on the very top of my agenda. I am too young to lose my dad and my children are way too young to lose grandpa. I am trying very hard to hold it together at work and at home (both of which are extremely stressful) and to be strong for my 6 year old that is having a hard time with this. I have been stuffing a ton of emotions since this all started and I am on the edge of losing it - and maybe I need to. Ok, Im done now. That should keep my sane for a few more days. Thank you for listening, I will try not to lose it again on here. Just please try to be understanding.

Please keep up your support of Dennis, he still needs all the prayers he can get. In fact, If you all can crank it up a little it would be great.