Happy (late) Birthday

Happy Birthday to Ruth, it was on the 28th. Sorry I am late with it. To update you too, she did need surgery on her arm on the 23rd, I think a plate and a couple of rods?? My sisters will have to help me out I am brain numb.

Also, Merry (late) Christmas to all of you.

Christmas was tough, but that is not a shock. The Friday after Christmas was actually harder. Chris had to work so I rode in his semi with him to Detroit. We had to pick up a trailer at Herman Miller on 16th St. first - that hit me hard. I have not driven out that way since I visited Dad at Hospice after he died. So two holidays without him so far, so many more to go. My gram also was admitted to the hospital on the 23rd but they let her go on the 24th after sucking another liter of fluid from her chest and putting her on meds for pneumonia.

The only thing that helped me through the holiday was that my children get so geeked about Santa and they loved all the things they got. I dread the day Santa gets the boot. My nephew was upset this year because me and the kids were not there for dinner Christmas Eve but Chris' family is important too and that is their party night. We did stay the night at my mom's house as usual this year (thank you to my honey for being a good sport about it AND for getting coffee and donuts and bagels Christmas morning) Next year may be more difficult depending on what transpires between Chris & I over the next year. I have to say I have been in a pissy mood lately too and we had a couple pretty good arguements last weekend. Stupid crap too, mostly my bad attitude. He is a great man and takes good care of us and I am just a poopy head sometimes. I don't know what my funk is lately. I am just very ready to kiss this year good ridance!

I may post a couple Christmas picts later...who knows. I am not sure how much longer I will do this. By the way, the picture is of Chris and Emi - he is teaching her how to play scales on the guitar he gave her for Christmas.

I hope all of you are safe and enjoyed your family over the holidays.

Happy New Year!!

Last pict

As far as I know, this is the last pict of Dad there is. It was taken on Nov. 12th (1 day before he died). He told me to take it so my daughter would know that I did give him the pict she drew for him (because I had forgotten twice before). Bless him, he was always trying to keep me from getting into trouble with Emi. Just thought I would share because I forgot about it until I was uploading picts from my camera.

HOLY SNOW BATMAN

All I have to say is WOW am I glad I bought my truck in August!

Stay safe!!

So

So my step mom slipped on the ice and broke her arm on Monday. Of course I had to call her graceful for it. But that really sucks for her, like there hasn't been enough sh*t this year to deal with. She finds out Friday whether or not she needs surgery on it.

So on another note, I was reading my new Popular Science Tuesday night and got depressed really quick. There was a write up about a new Craftsman tech hammer and I actually moved slightly to call Dad to tell him about it. So I called Christopher to tell him about it because he would appreciate it and understand how sad I was about the whole thing. And a few minutes ago I read an email and almost forwarded it to him because it was EXACTLY his humor....dry, knee slapper. This whole thing has not hit me yet, but I can now feel it coming. I dread Christmas, part of me wants to skip going to Dad's house. Not because I don't want to go but because it will hit me hard. It will not be the same when someone gets the inevitable duct taped box because he always thought it was funny. I bought the stupid Dilbert calendar because I just could not deal with not buying it this year. I have had moments with seeing almond banket and vanilla cherry cordials in stores because he loved them and would usually get some this time of year...pathetic I know. I can just feel the growing sadness inside. I am trying to be thankful and grateful for what I have and it is hard. I just needed to get some of that out.

I also want to say all the Haworth people are in my thoughts, crap thing to happen, especially this time of year.

Be safe, the snow storms are acomin'

Holiday Cheer

So here is a normal picture of Christopher and I. He has been there for me for the last two years.

I don't really have anything to say, I am still rather shut down. We get the results of my Non scans next week and I am worried about that. Sometimes I wish I had a "normal" life. I would really like to be happy and social, but it is taking me a while. I just hang out at home. We put up the Christmas tree hoping that would give me some holiday cheer but it really hasn't. I am really trying though. So if you have any great ideas to help, let me know.